Encountering my nights! ✨ || Things that keep me up at night || Kashish Gupta

Things that keep me up at night;

 In the middle of every night, a wave of reminisce, those past events flandering and saddening me at the same time. All mistakes committed in the past blessing me with insomnia and resulting in devastating thoughts. Though just a rotation of the earth, it symbolises darkness and scars. That arousal of emotions synergises the stuff and hence the night antagonises the sleep.

A different relationship with night, its silence and desperation adding together to show their effect. That apprehensive thought causing the super additive effect and bringing desolation. The mind becomes hyperactive resisting the sleep. That's the way night keep me awake.

My insecurities and Incapabilities are more than enough to justify my insomnia. I often encounter the same. Perspiration over the head and nostalgia inside the brain, senses in the favour of that non-sleepy night. Holding tight my pillow to end up the fight. This fight with sleep is in fact a fight with my insecurities. How capable I am, gonna decide my priorities. Here the priority is sleep but the factors are impeding the results. I'm unable to sleep and this is annoying me up.

Well, my poetic nature is also one of the reasons, I am attracted to night. That Moon in the sky and the twinkling stars, inspiring me to shine, influencing me to write. Thousands of stars with a moon, that gazing bringing me to rejoice and time passes keeping me up at night.

I'm also worried about the future and my anxiety rises to its peak. That's the most frequent reason my sleepless nights attain a streak. That worry about the future and the stuff to be done in the upcoming days also adds a cherry on the cake and resist my sleep.

It's fun waking up at night but it's also a threat to a healthy life. This life costs more than sleepless nights. It's better to take proper sleep and win this fight. Taste the victory of full sleep and you'll realise what winning is like. Deal with your insomnia and end this shitty fight.

A serious message;

Well, I am quite aware of the consequences this insomnia cause. From dark circles to mental health hazards to anxiety, stress, etc and I want others to know the same as well. Insomnia is not something one should be proud of. Our body needs proper sleep to recover, refreshen you up and recharges you for next day activities. And with night sleep there is an association with our circadian rhythm i.e sleep-wake cycle. Hence it's important to take a proper sleep and don't let this insomnia hit you. If the same happens, consult your doctor.